For the longest time, my deepest wound in
I remember meeting men, being amazed by how incredible they were, falling in love and then quickly getting into these conflicts with them where it never felt like they understood me or I understood them. It was so frustrating and honestly, I gave up on dating a few times.
What I wasn’t totally clear on and what was my first awakening around this was that I had always felt this way in some capacity or another. I had always felt somewhat left out and like I was an outsider looking in at people. I had always felt like there was a big party of human beings standing in a big circle having fun and I was left out, being the outsider looking in.
I had experienced this for so long that it had become completely familiar to me and just repeated itself in my romantic life. Man after man. Failure after failure. And lack of clarity after lack of clarity. I had totally missed the boat on this one.
Getting super clear on this and assuming personal responsibility for this dynamic showing up in my life gave me a freedom I never knew was possible.
Going deep internally and shifting the dynamic THERE started bringing in a deeper level of love than I had ever experienced.
Men were curious about me on levels I had never imagined a lover would want to know me on. Men started diving deep with me in ways that pulled back the curtains and exposed my heart in ways that I had never known could happen. I experienced levels of intimacy that I had never even heard of. I became SEEN, KNOWN and LOVED.
And every time it shifted into a direction I didn’t feel good about, I was able to go within FIRST, clean it up and see it shift dramatically outside myself. I became powerful beyond measure.
I became the embodiment of epic power unleashed in the highest version of being seen and understood I could ever imagine.
It’s safe to go within. You hold all the answers. You ARE your own guru.