When I was seven years old, my dad married my step-mom. My step-mom and her family were amazing. She was one of the most loving people I ever met. What I loved the most about my step-mom was that she never made me feel like a freak for being sensitive. I was such a sensitive child (and adult), and I was always being told that I shouldn’t be so sensitive. But never by her.
She would hear me out and talk things out with me so that things made sense to me even if I didn’t like them or agree with them. She had a really beautiful daughter named Brandi who was twelve when we met. Brandi quickly became my idol.
She was so pretty, smart, dressed so cute and had the most amazing friends. I fell totally, sisterly in love with her right away. My step-mom also had a brother named Glenn. He was super hip and trendy, very cool and amazingly loving.
One night when I was twelve years old, I was sleeping in my dad and step-moms room when they got a call. It was from an emergency room, and my sister had been in a car accident. The hospital personnel asked us to get to the hospital right away.
The whole drive was a blur, and as soon as we got there, my step-mom, step-brother, and my dad rushed to the back for several hours while my brother and I waited for news. I mostly remember sitting there terrified.
I had never been in an emergency room before. I had never sat in an ER waiting room for hours before, and I was scared something was really wrong with my sister, my idol, my favorite person in the world.
Eventually, someone showed up and notified us that my sister died. That she was gone and that she was not coming back. I couldn’t believe it. I didn’t know something so awful was possible and my mind couldn’t quite grasp this.
After the service, my step-mom just lost herself for a while. She just wasn’t herself. So, my dad had my Uncle Glenn come help out for a while, and it was the best! He came out and took us to the movies and let us buy every kind of candy we wanted. It didn’t bring Brandi back, but it did distract us for a while.
We got closer to Glenn and visited him and his partner more, and it was so much fun. Glenn quickly became one of my favorite people over the next couple of years. And then it turned out that Glenn was really sick. And he was going to die. And then he did. I was devastated. I started to feel a little uncomfortable with being so close to people because Brandi and Glenn had both left me.
Growing up, my mom had to work some. So, my grandma and grandpa helped take care of my brother and me. Every day before school, they would come to our house, bring amazing doughnuts, help us get ready and get us off to school. They were SO loving. I seriously had so much love from them, and my brother and I felt SO blessed to be with them every day.
My grandpa was honestly the nicest man I ever knew, and he was so loving. He used to put a rose by my grandma’s breakfast every Saturday morning. So, I was devastated when I was seventeen and learned he had died. I did not take it well at ALL and didn’t handle myself very well.
So, why does a woman who grew up so loved have such a hard time with love?
Well, by the time I turned twenty I formed a strong belief that everyone leaves. Everyone dies. And yeah, of course, everyone dies, but for me, it went deeper. I opened my heart and got SO attached to people, and they all died when I was so young and couldn’t really process it.
I developed a belief that when you love someone, they LEAVE. When you love someone, they DIE. And when you love someone, it’s NOT SAFE to love. From that point on, after my grandpa died, I attracted nothing but dead love after dead love. Energetically speaking, of course. And all the work I did to shift this was on the conscious level because I had NO idea what was blocking me so deeply on a subconscious level.
Once I learned how to energetically shift this belief, I started attracting partners who did NOT leave. Partners who wanted to stay even if I felt they were not a match and I was not interested in THEM.
Once I got clear on how to energetically align with the partner I wanted and how to embody the version of me that was already happily married, already madly in love, already had a family, THEN things shifted for me at a level I never dreamt possible. And I really want this FOR YOU!!!!!
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