Law of Attraction – The first time it happened, I didn’t believe it would work. How in the world could closing my eyes, imagining my husband with his arms around me and us dancing on our porch, do a thing?
The moment I closed my eyes, I felt awkward, uncomfortable. My eyes begged me to open them, my body wouldn’t relax and my mind screamed that none of it was real.
And yet I stayed in it for a minute, and the strangest thing happened. I could almost feel his breath on my neck, myself standing on my tiptoes because he was so tall and laughter bursting out of me at a silly joke he made. So, I stayed. One minute turned into two, two into three, three into four…
They call it the law of attraction.
Supposedly if I can visualize what I want, see myself having it, release any negative beliefs or emotion attached to it and get into the feeling good space of it, it’s mine.
And what I had wanted for many years, cried about, clung to, despaired over, was having my husband. I had spent many a night, up all night questioning and doubting, yelling at God, visiting psychics, hiring coaches like myself and trying on so many different men. Yet I failed, over and over and never knew why.
I tried women’s groups, therapy, books and wailed on the floor and nothing seemed to work. I turned all this pain and despair in towards myself.
Many of hours were spent looking in the mirror. Was I too skinny? Hair too frizzy? Eyes too big? I doubted myself more and more and eventually, these doubts spilled over into all my relationships with men.
They would run far into the other direction because it was exhausting to reassure another human being who wouldn’t do the work to reassure herself.
Then one night everything changed.
This is not another blog about how I loved myself single and then he showed up. This is not a blog about how I just visualized him every day, perfectly, never doubted and then he showed up. This is a blog about it all. About how I learned to love myself deeper than anyone has ever loved me.
How I learned to manifest the life I have always wanted. How I learned to take care of myself during the dark nights of the soul when I did NOT love myself and did NOT believe my guy would ever show up. How I have spent time and money learning to understand the differences between men and women and how to make a relationship work. How I learned to date successfully and make a man want to commit to me.
And most importantly, this…
I write this blog piece with a beautiful ring on my finger. My amazing husband who has treated me better and loves me harder than any man is relaxing on our sofa right now.
And how we live with a beautiful view of the beach from where we live because after all…when I lived in Houston, TX and would visualize my life with my husband we lived by the beach.
I visualized this because I wanted to live by the beach. And I will leave you with this…when my husband holds me in his arms, I have to stand on my tiptoes. And I am always, always, laughing at some silly joke he made. 🙂
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